Born on December 19, 1942 (see astrology chart), during World War II, I snapped into awareness suddenly at the age of two years, nine months: the news, over the radio, as I sat in my mother’s lap, of Hiroshima, August 6, 1945. This traumatic experience set the direction of my life. I was to help bring the whole world to peace, or die trying.
Growing up in Twin Falls Idaho as the first of eight children,
Growing up in Twin Falls Idaho as the first of eight children, I served as a smart, obedient, saintly, Roman Catholic role model:Then continue starting with Father smart, obedient, saintly Roman Catholic. Father a medical doctor, mother a nurse. Co-Valedictorian, class of 1960. BA Philosophy, Catholic University of America 1964. PhD Philosophy, Boston University 1972.
Though, so far, this sounds like the trajectory of any bright young woman back then, it’s not.
First of all, I got pregnant at 20, just prior to my senior year in college, and ended up marrying the father, whom I did not love. Living in Cambridge, MA, we had two children, both boys, during an increasingly contentious six years (1963-1970), during which I morphed into a man-hating “feminist.”
Post-divorce, during my final year at Boston University, I endured a mental/emotional/spiritual breakdown/breakthrough that left me CHANGED, and my PhD dissertation — composed in only six weeks, as a moment by moment revelation to myself — both reflected that change, and offered an alternative perspective on the entire history of western philosophy…
“The moment you are impatient, you recognize the force of time, that places in your way, the obstacles of space, to start a new chain of causation.”
— A.K. 1990
Born at dawn on December 19, 1942, 8:02 AM, CWT on an army base in San Antonio, Texas. Fiery, philosophical 27° Sagittarian Sun, exactly conjunct Galactic Center, just then rising to cross the 21° Sagittarian Ascendant.
Visionary, long-cycled planet Neptune, at 2° of diplomatic Libra, conjunct Midheaven and aspecting all planets except Moon and Jupiter.
Most difficult aspect: Neptune/MC square (90°), in friction with, Venus &Mercury at 5°& 7° of practical, controlling Capricorn. Life Path: Peace-maker, with tendency to dominate. Life Lesson: to learn to lead by subtly invoking invisible frequency fields for human cooperation
Circles, like the soul, are neverending and turn round and round without a stop.
Ralph Waldo Emerson
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“Ann, explorer and witness to psychic, synchronistic, astrological and psychological links between inner psyche, outer reality and invisible realms, portrays a marriage that continued after death to encompass these realms and their differences. A remarkable narrative.”
— Jean Shinoda Bolen, M.D., Jungian analyst, well-known author and speaker.
This book invites the reader into the rich inner journey of a woman whose husband died of a heart attack and left her, bereft and alone, in a brand new town. Unlike many who suffer sudden, unimaginable loss, Kreilkamp, 60, did not fall into depression. She describes, in detail, her “year of conscious grieving” during which she formally attended to new widowhood as a precious and short-lived mine of information and inner expansion. Interweaving the many dimensions—visible and invisible, literal and spiritual—to which she was privy during the initial stages of her mourning process, she shares both poignant remembrances and the shocking transformations that moved her and moved through her like squalls.
This Vast Being plunges the reader into the dynamics of a difficult marriage that gradually evolved into a union of equals and opened both their hearts. And it reveals the complex inner reality of Jeffrey Joel, a mostly submerged Renaissance Man who, post-death, presented unusual phenomena to demonstrate his existence in a realm that she sensed only a hair-breath from ours; who continued to impart his wisdom after he died and, to her surprise and delight, who invited her into a deeper intimacy than he could afford while embodied.
This Vast Being invites the reader into certain interior spaces of which most of us are not normally aware, and to explore them. As we open to this vast being inside us, we access an expansive awareness that transforms what appears as irreplaceable loss into a magnificent cache of hidden significance. In so doing, this book creates a down-to-earth and unusually inclusive template for human healing.
Finally, This Vast Being gathers journal writings from the first year after my husband Jeff died into book chapters that hopefully, may assist, console, and even illuminate others who are undergoing the profound inner process that accompanies the death of a loved one.
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